Trans influencer Dylan Mulvaney has said she has been having trouble sleeping since a backlash erupted over her partnership with Bud Light and questioned what psychological effects being called a man thousands of times a day will have on her.
Her comments came during an episode of the ‘Dear Schuyler’ podcast, hosted by trans athlete Schuyler Bailar and which released on Monday.
Mulvaney suggested that as the trans debate in the US has escalated, transphobia has become increasingly blatant, resulting in an inhospitable ‘Wild West’ for trans people.
On April 1, Mulvaney became embroiled in a controversy that would make national headlines for weeks after she shared on Instagram a promotional Bud Light can with her face printed on it.
Trans influencer Dylan Mulvaney (pictured during her appearance on the ‘Dear Schuyler’ podcast) said she has been having trouble sleeping since a backlash erupted over her partnership with Bud Light
While she admitted she had been having sleeping difficulties, she also said the barrage of hate that ensued after the partnership has taught her not to waste time trying to please everyone.
‘I remember even in college, just a few years ago, if one person potentially didn’t like me it would keep me up at night and now there are hundreds of thousands of people that do not like me,’ she said.
‘I still sometimes can’t sleep, but it in a weird way it has been a blessing to break that people-pleasing mentality, because there’s no way that I can win those people over,’ she said.
‘If you go back to some of my earlier videos, I was pleading with these people, I was like, “What can I say to show them a different part of myself? What can I do?”‘ she added.
Bailar, who was hosting the podcast, was the first transgender athlete to compete as a swimmer on an NCAA Division 1 men’s team. He shared his own experiences in dealing with criticism and commented on how Mulvaney had appeared in the news.
‘You’ve been on the headlines a lot recently,’ he said. ‘Sometimes it’s good, but a lot of times, I’m not going to tell you the headlines, a lot of times it’s not so good.’
‘Oh, I know,’ said Mulvaney, before going on to explain how negative coverage affected her and that she has withdrawn from social media.
‘I’ve been wondering a lot this past week what the psychological effects are, and will be, of being called a man thousands and thousands of times a day,’ she said.
Dressed in the same Burberry skirt suit she was seen wearing in the podcast, the 26-year-old activist said on Tuesday she has learned to care less about the way she is judged
Last month Bailar (right) hosted fellow trans swimmer Liam Thomas (left) on his podcast
Mulvaney went on to say that blocking out the negative voices had the unfortunate consequence of silencing people that were offering her support.
‘I want to be accessible to the right people but in other ways, if one person ruins it for us all I can’t check the DMs, or I have to limit the comments,’ she added.
She also said the process of trying to deal with the hate had made her more resilient but that she did not want to lose her sensitivity.
‘What would make me more sad than anything is if I was too hardened as a person or become jaded or not care, because I care so deeply that I like that part of myself. Sometimes I think that we need to find the balance there,’ she said.
Last month Bailar hosted fellow trans swimmer Liam Thomas on his podcast. In that episode they discussed the controversy around allowing trans-female athletes to compete on women’s sports teams.
Recent figures reveal that Bud Light sales have plummeted across the US in the wake of the Mulvaney partnership.
Data from Beer Business Daily showed that sales of the US’s number one brand has fallen in all regions of the country.
Sales in the Rocky Mountain states dipped the most, down by 29 percent, with the South Atlantic, West North Central and East South Central all dropping 25 percent.
That hasn’t stopped brands from continuing to partner with Mulvaney, however. Three weeks after the Bud Light promotion, cosmetics company Maybelline sponsored a video posted to her TikTok.