The 24-year-old singer – who has written the memoir The Half of It cot April – talked depression with the host.
And surprisingly, Madison – who earlier this month said she had attempted suicide – admitted that she had actually considered suicide twice.
And to the audience’s shock, Drew shared that she also had thought of taking her life twice.
Barrymore also said that she felt so ‘desperate’ at the time she didn’t know what else to do.
Drew began, ‘Everybody struggles, so I related on levels that are difficult to talk about and I want to thank you because you’re discussing stuff right now that I want to make you feel safe about because I’ve been there.’
So hard: Madison Beer sat down with Drew Barrymore on Wednesday. The 24-year-old singer – who has written the memoir The Half of It cot April – talked depression with the host. And surprisingly, Madison – who earlier this month said she had attempted suicide – admitted that she had actually considered suicide twice
A struggle: And to the audience’s shock, Drew shared that she also had thought of taking her life twice
She added, ‘So when you were struggling there was attempts at escaping life, tell me about that.
Madison said, ‘I got to the point that things caught up with me that I had never acknowledged, I never wanted to face. I feel like I was sort of putting on this façade and living this role I had been assigned for so long and it all caught up to me one day and then one day turned into weeks and months and honestly I feel like it was at least year that I was always in this sort of like suicidal ideation mindset.
‘It felt very normal to me to think about that at the end of every day, and then that wasn’t until I ended up actually making an attempt. It was thankfully, obviously unsuccessful.
Beer then said it all became too much.
‘And that’s when I also decided, “Okay clearly there’s something more for me to live for. I wasn’t successful and I want to do something with that.” I want to be able to say I made the choice to live and what am I gonna do now, what does that mean?’
Drew asked if it happened twice.
‘Yeah, I don’t like to I guess admit that it happened twice because the second time I sort of brush off, and that should just show how not serious it was to me anymore, it became so normal that sitting on a balcony and debating jumping off was just something that I kind of did.
A happy moment after a sad interview: Barrymore also said that she felt so ‘desperate’ at the time she didn’t know what else to do
Hard life but she is strong: Drew then said she also thought about suicide twice. ‘Me as well, twice. I don’t know if I really wanted to leave the Earth. I was so desperate that I did not know where else to turn,’ she said
‘And that’s why I’m like, “Was that really that big of a deal?” and now obviously with a lot of reflection and writing about it, obviously yes.’
Drew then said she also thought about suicide twice.
‘Me as well, twice. I don’t know if I really wanted to leave the Earth. I was so desperate that I did not know where else to turn,’ she said.
Madison added, ‘Right you wanted like a way out even if it was maybe temporary, but obviously it can’t be. There’s no way to describe it.
‘I always used to say to my best friend, “I just want a temporary death, like maybe it’s not forever but right now it’s too much and I want out currently.”‘
Drew asked Madison how she found her way back before saying, ‘I ask because I’ve had to ask myself these same questions.’
Madison: ‘I still ask it. I think my biggest thing though was I started doing a lot of inner child work, I started healing the little girl in me very seriously and that was something I dove in head first.
Life is not always easy: Drew began, ‘Everybody struggles, so I related on levels that are difficult to talk about and I want to thank you because you’re discussing stuff right now that I want to make you feel safe about because I’ve been there’
With a friend: Barrymore glowed alongside pal Ronan Farrow at the 2023 TIME100 Gala at Jazz at Lincoln Center on April 26
‘I was like this has to be what I start with, I have to start at the beginning of where I feel like this pain is coming from.
‘So I really took that seriously, I went on a couple mental health retreats.’
Beer also did therapy every single day of the week. ‘I just really committed to getting to better, whatever better even means. I started to love myself the same way I try to love other people.’
Drew then said she loved Madison. ‘Everything you just said what as an incredible roller coaster of real productiveness in seeking help, in self-awareness, in giving grace to others, realizing you’re not giving it to yourself…and I applaud that because you never have to be fake or anyone but you.’
Revelation: Beer gets vulnerable in her upcoming memoir The Half of It; seen in March
In mid April Beer shared part of her book with People.
The music artist details a moment when she contemplated suicide at the age of 16 in 2015.
Part of the extract reads: ‘Once, on a particularly heavy day, I climbed over the edge of my balcony in LA and stood there, a million thoughts running through my head as I stared down at the ground, my eyes going in and out of focus.’
The harrowing experience took place at the juncture of her split from her record label and having her private, explicit photos leak online.
The pop star told the publication earlier this year, ‘I really wanted to write this book now because I thought sharing some of the ups and downs in my life might be able to help other people navigate and relate.’
Beer came to fame as a teenager when Justin Bieber posted a link to one of her covers. She released her debut single, Melodies, in 2013. In 2018, Beer released her debut EP, As She Pleases.
Just a young girl: Here she is seen in 2013 at the Teen Vogue Coveted Young Hollywood Issue Party in Los Angeles
Madison wrote in one part of the literary work, ‘While negotiating the details of going independent was rocky, the emotional turmoil of being dropped was harder to work through.’
She exercised transparency as she continued, ‘It wasn’t just a bump in my career—it was a hit to my personal life, too.
‘Coupled with the trauma of having my nudes leaked, it completely shattered the image I had of Los Angeles and the industry.’
The Harper Books-published excerpt went on, ‘These two big, life-altering events happening back to back knocked me off my feet, tilted my world on its axis, and left me feeling like I had no idea who I was.
‘I didn’t know who I could trust anymore, and I didn’t even know I needed to seek help for the way I was feeling.’
In another part of the writing Madison explained what happened once she was discovered on the balcony.
‘Once, on a particularly heavy day, I climbed over the edge of my balcony in LA and stood there, a million thoughts running through my head as I stared down at the ground, my eyes going in and out of focus. I don’t think I would have jumped.
‘It was more about knowing that I could—that I had a way out if it became too much. Still, I lingered there for a long while, chilled by the fact that I wasn’t all that scared of being up so high.’
Dark: The harrowing experience took place at the juncture of her split from her record label and having her private, explicit photos leak online
She wrote that her brother discovered her and immediately called for their parents.
‘My little brother found me and screamed for my parents, and as I climbed back over, listening to them all freak out, I was only confused why they were making such a big deal out of it.
‘The thought of killing myself was so normal to me at that point that I had forgotten it wasn’t something everyone pondered on a daily basis,’ she penned.
Elsewhere she reflected, ‘It was a lot of conflicting emotions for a newly sixteen-year-old girl to try to shoulder on her own. I felt like I was my own worst enemy.
‘I retreated more and more into myself, and it was the beginning of some of the darkest years of my life, starting at age sixteen and following me into my twenties.
‘There were many times—just like the night my nudes were leaked—that I felt so backed into a corner I thought the only way out was to end my life.’
The book was first announced in February, with Madison stating then, ‘I hope by sharing my honest journey that perhaps someone that wanted to hide behind a keyboard to be mean or poke fun at someone else’s expense thinks twice before they hit “send.”‘
She added, ‘I hope that we can find the strength to support each other and that we can work to treat others in the way we would want to be treated.’
Dedication: Madison dedicated the piece of writing to her family and her younger self
In her most recent Instagram post, Madison wrote to her 35.8 million followers, ‘less than two weeks. The Half Of It will be yours so so soon. my memoir, my story, my life and conversations i’m finally ready to have. pre order in bio !!! x.’
Her mother Tracie Beer showed support as she wrote in the comments, ‘This book will truly help so many people in so many ways!’
The proud parent added, ‘So proud of you for being so vulnerable.’
In February Madison took to the photo-sharing platform to post the dedication page, and front and back covers.
She said in a heartfelt caption, ‘my memoir, The Half of It, will be yours april 25th. it feels truly surreal to be announcing this book and i am so excited to share my story with you in a way i never have before.
‘from the reality of being signed at twelve, to everything that followed, where i am now, and my journey of reconciling with everything that came before. it has taken me a lot of extremely dark times to get here but i feel incredibly ready to tell you these chapters of my story. i hope you love it. i can’t wait to reintroduce myself to you.
you can now pre order my book using the link in my bio. can’t believe this day has come. thank you already.’
The Biebs link: Beer came to fame as a teenager when Justin Bieber posted a link to one of her covers. She released her debut single, Melodies, in 2013. In 2018, Beer released her debut EP, As She Pleases. Seen in 2022